Today, I had some time, so I went back and read through the captions on my Instagram photos. I started this Instagram account in October of 2019. In the past couple of years, I have had few ups and downs. They say that healing isn’t linear, and I can attest to that, there are days when I feel on top of the world and days where I’m not even sure I can make it out of bed. There are times when I overflow with self-love, self-worth, and my self-confidence is on fire. Then there are the days where I am self-loathing, self-depreciating, and I don’t believe I have any worth.
All too often in my life I have let other people dictate how I see myself and that has to stop. I have allowed the actions of others to affect my thoughts and my perceptions of who I am and for what? So, they could feel more powerful or better about themselves. The sad truth is, is when we allow people day in and day out to speak lies into our life, we start to believe what they say is true, because their words become our thoughts and we reiterate their lies over and over again in our minds. This is where my biggest struggle of healing comes from, is retraining my brain to think true thoughts and not lies people have spoken into my life.
I have spent time in therapy, I have read many books, and have surrounded myself with people who speak truth and love into my life and I am still learning, growing, and healing as a person. Something that has helped me a lot is writing down affirmations and things I am grateful for in my life. The more I focus on the positives in my life, the less the negative has a hold on it. I also have wrote down all my negative thoughts in a journal and wrote counteractive positive thoughts, that I reread multiple times a day, so that I can retrain my brain to think positive instead of negative thoughts. Healing is not an easy process. In fact healing is messy and hard and sometimes it isn’t pretty at all, but it is worth it and so are you. You are worthy of healing and worthy of being the best version of you, that you can love and be proud of.